For my pappa...

     I don't know why but I was struggling to give an introduction to the piece that is given below... I am not a Stephanie or a Shakespeare to arrange words in the most beautiful way possible but I have never felt difficulty in expressing my feelings...English is a fantastic language where you don't have to struggle to find words to express yourself...Now I realize when it comes to laying down your feelings, words don't come easily...

    Believe me, even now I am blank, completely speechless to introduce you to the most inspiring man in my life...the source of my existence...the bundle of my confidence...the very reason why I am smiling even though I have thousands of reasons to cry...This is for the biggest hero of my life..My dad...

For my pappa..

For the one who kept his fingers crossed while I was making entry to this new world..

For the one who was busy distributing sweets while I was struggling to blow out the only candle on my cake..

  For the one who was singing lullabies at 2 a.m.  while I was seeing dreams laying on his chest..

For the one who bought me shoes while I was just learning to walk..

For the who always brought chocolates while I got scoldings from mom..

  
For the one who drove me in car while I kept wondering about my first day at school...

  
For the one who held me on his shoulders while I was mocking at the monkeys in zoo.. 

 For the one who stood smiling at me while I was reciting my action song.. 

 For the one who was holding my bicycle while I was screaming out at my wounds.. 

For the one who watched me eagerly while I was building sand palace at sea shore..

For the one who brought me new dresses while I enjoyed playing in the puddle.. 

 For the one who held me on his shoulders when i cried to see the singer on stage.. 

 For the who gave me a teddy bear while I was shifted to my new room..

For the one who played with my doggie while I was watering my garden.. 

For the one who sat on my bed side while I was laid down due to fever.. 

For the one who read the news paper thrice while I was taking a hair cut in the parlour.. 

 For the one who came for my sports day while I was busy running down the tracks..

 For the one who came with pop corns while I forced to go and watch a movie.. 

 For the one who stayed awake while I came late from my friend’s house.. 

For the who carried my luggage to hostel room while I was busy talking to other girls.. 

 For the one phoned me twice a day while I never bothered of making it once in a week..

  For the one who made sleepless work schedule while I was planning the next tour with my hostel mates.. 

For the one who traveled a long way for my convocation while I was busy sighing-off my classmates.. 

For the one who bought college applications while I was planning for my post graduation.. 

For the one who hugged me tight when I showed him my job letter.. 

 For the one who walked with me through the aisle while I smiled and winked at my fiancée..

 For the one who took me to doc now and then while I was back home for pregnancy leave.. 

 For the one who showed me how to bring up a daughter because now I had one kicking on my lap.. 

But most importantly;
For the one who always thought about me,
one who was a helping hand for me,

one who has praying lips for me,

And one who dedicated his life for me..

Though he was always beside me through the thin and thick times..

Though he never complained about the fuzz I made about small-big things..

And most of all,

he never made a frowning curve That I never bothered tell him a heart-felt thank you.. 

This is just because I wanna tell u, though u know it;

   “pappa, I love u...you are the hero of my world..”

 

  cheers to that strong hero of your life!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

sometimes...

   Whenever a difficult situation turns up...you feel like there is nothing you can do to bring back your life to the normal level...that present situation turns up as the only problem in the whole universe where you wont get a complete solution...It makes you sick...It weakens your confidence...You feel defeated...It makes you feel that you no longer have the strength to cope up with the situation....life seems too tough to live..too tough that we cant move on...too tough to even breath...

But even between those hard ships..between the moments you felt the unbearable burden on your shoulders..the times when you thought life is not as worthy as it seems to be...the times when you had no choices around you...when you felt all the positive spirits draining out of your soul, there was something..something inside your head...or heart...something that felt like a flicker of a lamp...something or some one inside you whispering...to hold on a little more...a voice telling that this time too will pass along...telling you to hang on for some more time....giving you some hope...a ray of hope!!

The words below are for everyone who have felt a ray of rope at the time of despair..and the ones who havent heard it till now..its should be because you have already figured out a way!!

"Sometimes those tiny eyes of yours

                                  may gather up some tears,

sometimes those praying hands of yours

                                      may tremble with fears,

sometimes those words you always say

                                           may turn out to be a curse,

sometimes those close ones of yours

                                           may make your life worse,

but listen to the voice in your heart that says,

                                           hold on there, hang on a little more,

These sometimes doesn't last for a long time,

                                but they give lessons that stays for a life time..!"

So next time something forces you to jump off the cliff,

       listen to the tiny voice inside you,

                either some one is down there to catch you when you fall,

                            or you will know how to fly..!!

Have a smiling day!!                                  

One last chance...

It doesn't happen very often that someone just comes into your life out of nowhere and divides it into two perfect halves, the times before you met them and the times after you met them...This angel could be your best friend, your new neighbor, your gym-mate or someone who chose to randomly walk through your life and changed yourself completely...

But you know what could be the biggest mistake that could happen after the entry of this angel...when you don't see them...see how special they are...how wonderful your life turned out to be after they came in...when you don't realize they are holding your hand and you keep complaining that there is no one around for you... you never bothered about the way they cared you...how much they valued your smiles...how much they wanted to be with you...and how at last they had to leave you...

 Then the pain comes....revealing how large is the hole that has been created in the soul....how shattered down to pieces is your ego...how dragging is every moment of your life...how alone you feel...how unconditionally was the space in your heart reserved for those angels...finally how heart broken you are now....

This piece is for that person who talked to me an hour ago...crying out aloud for his lost love...beating himself with regret because he never thought he would fall in love with anyone...her, not a chance... Now he is screaming out of agony...he is alone....he is in pain...he is destroyed...he is heart broken....And now all he asks for is...one more chance.....one last chance....

And here it goes;

        In life, there were many a times when I treated you as the least important person in the whole damn world, though that was never ever true...

        My stupid brains have forgotten to wish you on your b'days ( and the worst part is scooting out from your parties to join my boys) and of course told you a thousand hundred lies to hide my fault..

    I have often laughed at the presents you gave me and never bothered enough to give you even a thank you smile..

   I should have cared enough to take you on a ride, hold your hand and walk through the streets and may be even danced in the rain..alas all I asked you was to go out with your girls...

  I should have gone for the dinner with you  instead of pretending that the cocktail party was more important for me...

  I should have walked on the shore tracing your foot prints, writing your name on the sands and gazed at the golden sun holding you close to me, wrapped in my arms..but all I did was giving you stupid lectures of my retarded boss...

   I might have been lazy in ringing you forgetting the fact that you must be staying awake for my call...

     I should have told a 'hi' or at least a smile while you kept on waving your hands frantically among the crowd...guess my soul was blind then...

   I should have brought you a red rose, kissed on your head and whispered that you are my life..am sure this would have made you smile..but what I did on valentine's day was hiking with my colleagues..

      I might have shouted at you for waking me up in the morning when all you wanted to say was "its your mom's b'day"...god i cant forgive myself...

    I might have admired the hot girls in the shopping mall while I had an extremely beautiful angel standing next to me...

   I should have listened to what you wanted to say..the way you were struggling to get the words out of your  trembling lips..and all the while me being a dump fellow to think about escaping the situation...

 

    I should have been amused by the way your eyes lighted up whenever a smile crossed across my stupid face...

    I should have caressed my fingers across your cheeks which turned glowing red on hearing a compliment from me...

    I should have admired the way your lips made a smiling curve whenever you were near me...

But most importantly,

I should have held you in my arms,
drowned myself in those sweet eyes,
and said from the bottom of my heart,
I love you...love you forever..

     but given one more chance to touch you,

                            one more chance to kiss you,

                                         one more chance to know you,

                                                    one more chance to care you,

                                                                just give me one last chance to love you....

    But what could she do...She had her priorities...some one is there in her life now...some one who sees her as the angel of his life...so no matter how hard he cried, there was no turning back for her....The bruises he gave were very deep...but she moved on...and now she can never go back...never...she knows that...and he knows that....

So when some one comes in your life and spends some time with you....
respect their feelings..
and if you feel something beating in your heart for them, do not hesitate to tell them how much they mean to you... 
else...
time may go on...
and they too will....
and you will stay at the same spot with wounds and regrets...
 of losing them...forever