One last chance...

It doesn't happen very often that someone just comes into your life out of nowhere and divides it into two perfect halves, the times before you met them and the times after you met them...This angel could be your best friend, your new neighbor, your gym-mate or someone who chose to randomly walk through your life and changed yourself completely...

But you know what could be the biggest mistake that could happen after the entry of this angel...when you don't see them...see how special they are...how wonderful your life turned out to be after they came in...when you don't realize they are holding your hand and you keep complaining that there is no one around for you... you never bothered about the way they cared you...how much they valued your smiles...how much they wanted to be with you...and how at last they had to leave you...

 Then the pain comes....revealing how large is the hole that has been created in the soul....how shattered down to pieces is your ego...how dragging is every moment of your life...how alone you feel...how unconditionally was the space in your heart reserved for those angels...finally how heart broken you are now....

This piece is for that person who talked to me an hour ago...crying out aloud for his lost love...beating himself with regret because he never thought he would fall in love with anyone...her, not a chance... Now he is screaming out of agony...he is alone....he is in pain...he is destroyed...he is heart broken....And now all he asks for is...one more chance.....one last chance....

And here it goes;

        In life, there were many a times when I treated you as the least important person in the whole damn world, though that was never ever true...

        My stupid brains have forgotten to wish you on your b'days ( and the worst part is scooting out from your parties to join my boys) and of course told you a thousand hundred lies to hide my fault..

    I have often laughed at the presents you gave me and never bothered enough to give you even a thank you smile..

   I should have cared enough to take you on a ride, hold your hand and walk through the streets and may be even danced in the rain..alas all I asked you was to go out with your girls...

  I should have gone for the dinner with you  instead of pretending that the cocktail party was more important for me...

  I should have walked on the shore tracing your foot prints, writing your name on the sands and gazed at the golden sun holding you close to me, wrapped in my arms..but all I did was giving you stupid lectures of my retarded boss...

   I might have been lazy in ringing you forgetting the fact that you must be staying awake for my call...

     I should have told a 'hi' or at least a smile while you kept on waving your hands frantically among the crowd...guess my soul was blind then...

   I should have brought you a red rose, kissed on your head and whispered that you are my life..am sure this would have made you smile..but what I did on valentine's day was hiking with my colleagues..

      I might have shouted at you for waking me up in the morning when all you wanted to say was "its your mom's b'day"...god i cant forgive myself...

    I might have admired the hot girls in the shopping mall while I had an extremely beautiful angel standing next to me...

   I should have listened to what you wanted to say..the way you were struggling to get the words out of your  trembling lips..and all the while me being a dump fellow to think about escaping the situation...

 

    I should have been amused by the way your eyes lighted up whenever a smile crossed across my stupid face...

    I should have caressed my fingers across your cheeks which turned glowing red on hearing a compliment from me...

    I should have admired the way your lips made a smiling curve whenever you were near me...

But most importantly,

I should have held you in my arms,
drowned myself in those sweet eyes,
and said from the bottom of my heart,
I love you...love you forever..

     but given one more chance to touch you,

                            one more chance to kiss you,

                                         one more chance to know you,

                                                    one more chance to care you,

                                                                just give me one last chance to love you....

    But what could she do...She had her priorities...some one is there in her life now...some one who sees her as the angel of his life...so no matter how hard he cried, there was no turning back for her....The bruises he gave were very deep...but she moved on...and now she can never go back...never...she knows that...and he knows that....

So when some one comes in your life and spends some time with you....
respect their feelings..
and if you feel something beating in your heart for them, do not hesitate to tell them how much they mean to you... 
else...
time may go on...
and they too will....
and you will stay at the same spot with wounds and regrets...
 of losing them...forever