sometimes...

   Whenever a difficult situation turns up...you feel like there is nothing you can do to bring back your life to the normal level...that present situation turns up as the only problem in the whole universe where you wont get a complete solution...It makes you sick...It weakens your confidence...You feel defeated...It makes you feel that you no longer have the strength to cope up with the situation....life seems too tough to live..too tough that we cant move on...too tough to even breath...

But even between those hard ships..between the moments you felt the unbearable burden on your shoulders..the times when you thought life is not as worthy as it seems to be...the times when you had no choices around you...when you felt all the positive spirits draining out of your soul, there was something..something inside your head...or heart...something that felt like a flicker of a lamp...something or some one inside you whispering...to hold on a little more...a voice telling that this time too will pass along...telling you to hang on for some more time....giving you some hope...a ray of hope!!

The words below are for everyone who have felt a ray of rope at the time of despair..and the ones who havent heard it till now..its should be because you have already figured out a way!!

"Sometimes those tiny eyes of yours

                                  may gather up some tears,

sometimes those praying hands of yours

                                      may tremble with fears,

sometimes those words you always say

                                           may turn out to be a curse,

sometimes those close ones of yours

                                           may make your life worse,

but listen to the voice in your heart that says,

                                           hold on there, hang on a little more,

These sometimes doesn't last for a long time,

                                but they give lessons that stays for a life time..!"

So next time something forces you to jump off the cliff,

       listen to the tiny voice inside you,

                either some one is down there to catch you when you fall,

                            or you will know how to fly..!!

Have a smiling day!!                                  

One last chance...

It doesn't happen very often that someone just comes into your life out of nowhere and divides it into two perfect halves, the times before you met them and the times after you met them...This angel could be your best friend, your new neighbor, your gym-mate or someone who chose to randomly walk through your life and changed yourself completely...

But you know what could be the biggest mistake that could happen after the entry of this angel...when you don't see them...see how special they are...how wonderful your life turned out to be after they came in...when you don't realize they are holding your hand and you keep complaining that there is no one around for you... you never bothered about the way they cared you...how much they valued your smiles...how much they wanted to be with you...and how at last they had to leave you...

 Then the pain comes....revealing how large is the hole that has been created in the soul....how shattered down to pieces is your ego...how dragging is every moment of your life...how alone you feel...how unconditionally was the space in your heart reserved for those angels...finally how heart broken you are now....

This piece is for that person who talked to me an hour ago...crying out aloud for his lost love...beating himself with regret because he never thought he would fall in love with anyone...her, not a chance... Now he is screaming out of agony...he is alone....he is in pain...he is destroyed...he is heart broken....And now all he asks for is...one more chance.....one last chance....

And here it goes;

        In life, there were many a times when I treated you as the least important person in the whole damn world, though that was never ever true...

        My stupid brains have forgotten to wish you on your b'days ( and the worst part is scooting out from your parties to join my boys) and of course told you a thousand hundred lies to hide my fault..

    I have often laughed at the presents you gave me and never bothered enough to give you even a thank you smile..

   I should have cared enough to take you on a ride, hold your hand and walk through the streets and may be even danced in the rain..alas all I asked you was to go out with your girls...

  I should have gone for the dinner with you  instead of pretending that the cocktail party was more important for me...

  I should have walked on the shore tracing your foot prints, writing your name on the sands and gazed at the golden sun holding you close to me, wrapped in my arms..but all I did was giving you stupid lectures of my retarded boss...

   I might have been lazy in ringing you forgetting the fact that you must be staying awake for my call...

     I should have told a 'hi' or at least a smile while you kept on waving your hands frantically among the crowd...guess my soul was blind then...

   I should have brought you a red rose, kissed on your head and whispered that you are my life..am sure this would have made you smile..but what I did on valentine's day was hiking with my colleagues..

      I might have shouted at you for waking me up in the morning when all you wanted to say was "its your mom's b'day"...god i cant forgive myself...

    I might have admired the hot girls in the shopping mall while I had an extremely beautiful angel standing next to me...

   I should have listened to what you wanted to say..the way you were struggling to get the words out of your  trembling lips..and all the while me being a dump fellow to think about escaping the situation...

 

    I should have been amused by the way your eyes lighted up whenever a smile crossed across my stupid face...

    I should have caressed my fingers across your cheeks which turned glowing red on hearing a compliment from me...

    I should have admired the way your lips made a smiling curve whenever you were near me...

But most importantly,

I should have held you in my arms,
drowned myself in those sweet eyes,
and said from the bottom of my heart,
I love you...love you forever..

     but given one more chance to touch you,

                            one more chance to kiss you,

                                         one more chance to know you,

                                                    one more chance to care you,

                                                                just give me one last chance to love you....

    But what could she do...She had her priorities...some one is there in her life now...some one who sees her as the angel of his life...so no matter how hard he cried, there was no turning back for her....The bruises he gave were very deep...but she moved on...and now she can never go back...never...she knows that...and he knows that....

So when some one comes in your life and spends some time with you....
respect their feelings..
and if you feel something beating in your heart for them, do not hesitate to tell them how much they mean to you... 
else...
time may go on...
and they too will....
and you will stay at the same spot with wounds and regrets...
 of losing them...forever

Life is a gift...!

God, I hate cleaning.. And now am forced to do it... Well, actually my mom advised me to clean ma shelf.. The sight of books arranged as if it was the great wall of china..and some papers inserted in between, I bet it was not a beautiful sight to watch...However this cleaning duty is killing my happiness..But opening old books, going through the doodles is kinda funny...thinking of the stupidity scrapped down by me...smiling at the books that were gifted to me by my dear ones..Sensing a bit of happiness when i saw the book (of the subject I hated ) covered by dust...though i had to clean it before replacing...I cant believe it..am enjoying the work..!!

But as they say....everything happens for a reason and and good that i started cleaning...well, this thought struck me when i read a piece of newspaper  neatly folded and kept in one of my scribbling book...I was blown out on reading that.. Usually am a person who never forget things that i read.. However, this piece, though i have folded and kept it doesnt seem to ring any bell.. The first thing that came to my mind was to share this piece in my blog.. This is not my creation..however, I'll be much honored if atleast one person reads this...

Its wonderful..specially for those who are trying to find reasons to end life because someone dumped you...

because you lost one or may be two papers...

because your parents got divorced...

because your loved ones hurted you...

or may be because you dont find any reason to live...

Just go through the below piece...

[From the New Indian Express, Friday, Nov. 9, 2001]

"Life is a gift" is a forward that was sent in memory of Erma Bombeck who lost her fight with cancer.


If I had my life to live over...


* I would have taken the time to listen to my grand father ramble about his youth...

 *I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed...

I would have burnt the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage...

I would have sat on the lawn with my children and not worried about the grass stains...

*  I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life...

* I would have gone to bed when i was sick instead of pretending the earth would go to a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day...

* I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil or was guaranteed to last for a life time...

* Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I would have cherished every moment realizing that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist god in a miracle...

*  When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, " Later, now go get washed up for dinner."...

*  There would have been more " I love you"s and more "I am sorry"s.....but mostly given another shot at life, I would seize every minute...look at it and really see it....live it and never give it back...


                                                                                                               - Erma Bombeck

Just wanna say that  if life had only happiness, it would never have been a game worth playing... 
There is only one life...Live it.....!! Enjoy it....!!

tk cr...keep smiling..!!

The beginning...

Its always difficult...to begin....be it to get up from bed and start a new day...

or be it start a speech which you have rehersed a thousand times in front of the mirror....yet at that point with just 50 faces staring at you battling with words seem so impossible..it takes all your strength to begin that "Ladies and gentlemen..."

You know that semester exams will begin at the end of two weeks...and you have enough time to study...and as an added advantage you have all the necessary materials with you...but to take out that first book and start revising the lessons...god knows why it takes so much pain to start....to begin....

when you have a close friend of your who was out of contact for 10 years and suddenly today you got his/ her number and you have decided to make a call...but the question is how many time have you cut the call before finally deciding to go for it.....Dint you feel a bit shy to begin??

Its a weekend day..Finally after five days of terrible work...you are spending a lazy afternoon..and then you get a call from your mom to go to groceries...and you know that mom doesnt like excuses(mine hates hearing it!!)....You must have endured the pain in pulling the feet out of your blanket and placing it on the floor..wondering some miracle to change mom's mind...Its hard, right?

I have been thinkin about my food habits for the past 2 years and not to mention my friends also fall in the same category  yet it seems so difficult to maintain a strict diet...to "begin" it....every time i think of dieting, an image of B&R and a single scoop of vanilla with nuts and chocolate beads decorated over it comes to my mind....and the beginning is delayed....again..

or even be it the day you always dremt of..the day you could bent one knee and ask your lady love the famous  question.."Will you marry me?"...C'mon ...why are we goin towards the proposal??!!...How many of you have the guts to go to the girl of your dreams and ask for a date...or cut that down to a coffee...can you hide that struggle in taking the first step...??

 

and what more...when we feel so difficult to tell the person whom we love the most the feeling we have towards them....then how are we ever gonna start our life with a bundle of expectations  in our back (most of the them piled by our siblings and parents!!) when we feel so itchy to begin...

Well am clueless...It must be the uneasiness to get out of the comfort zone...the problem in gettin disturbed...or fear that the present happiness might be lost...guess who knows...all that i know is it took me around one year to think should I start blogging or not...But once you begin...whilst fighting with all the alternatives and excuses you could find...inspite of the result..be it good or bad...you will be definitely happy that...you have begun it!!!!

Have a great day!!!